A burned out failure

[stupidhonor]

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...

By popular decision of the Lords, Ankaia will wage war on Earth. Ishin will be first in line, no doubt using his extraordinary might for great effect.

[Sielje is a mess. She sits with her head lowered, not bothering to change from her fancy dress - now torn and dusty from the fight.]

And it is all my fault.


If only... I was strong enough to face and defeat him...

If... only... I was stronger...!

[Her eyes are full of tears and you can hear pretty undignified sniffing.]

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[stupidhonor]

The former is easier than the latter.

I am where I was a long time ago. No progress made still, I failed in every goal I have decided on for myself.

[reactorhead_russians]

"Every goal?" Alexis says, raising an eyebrow. He waits for Sieljie to continue on her own time.

[stupidhonor]

The important ones - ones that matter, for sure.

[reactorhead_russians]

"And what were those goals?" Alexis asks.

[stupidhonor]

To not let it happen again...

That feeling, when you are powerless and cannot do a thing to change your fate. When you call yourself lucky for simply surviving.

It is unbearable.

[reactorhead_russians]

Alexia nods. "I know that feeling, Sieljie," he says quietly. "The terror of an overwhelming evil, the dread of being torn apart, unable to even run or fight."

He points a thumb at his heart. "Sasha and I became Rangers to destroy that helpless fear, just as you became a Knight.

Now Alexis jabs a finger at Sieljie's heart. "Odnako, Sieljie! You've forgotten one very important thing!"

[stupidhonor]

... Eh? Whatever might you mean?

[However? However what?]

[reactorhead_russians]

"We're not just fighting our fears," Alexis points out. "We're fighting the fears of everyone in this planet. Young or old, strong or weak, saint or scum–no one deserves to feel that helpless terror."

He folds his arms over his chest. "So we fight to protect them. We hone our abilities. We never give up. By doing all that, we inspire people to be more. We show that they're not alone. We turn their fear into hope."

He meets Sieljie's eyes. "Even if you haven't defeated that feeling in yourself Sieljie, you've done it for countless others."

[stupidhonor]

For others? Did I, really? I would not know...

[What did she achieve?]

... !

That one time... the clash at the market center...