The Apostle

[lostamigo]

[Just as the Lost Seeker global threat suddenly emerged, it was also suddenly defeated. Daniel watches a map on a touchpad, that shows the position of the Light Centurion thanks to the transmitter he fired at her unit - and, eventually, should show the mark of the Seekers' secret base.]

...He's probably there. Jason Godefroy. The last of the Three Wise Men. Unless you count me.

[He glances at Steel Wanderer. The mech looks completely normal now, despite its unusual performance during the battle.]

...Apostle Mode. When it was active, I felt... different. Like I'm more in touch with everything. The world, the Gun of God, myself. But when it stopped, the sensation stopped too.

...It was quite something.

Comments

[an_emulated_mind]

There was something similar, when I fought Apogee-she called it mushin, "no mind". A state where I can see and understand perfectly what's going on around me, and how to best react to it-was it something like that?

Though that was all me, no mystic technology required.

[lostamigo]

Similar, perhaps. Kinda rings a bell. Not the same thing though. After all, you saw how Steel Wanderer moved. It was affected too. Not just me.

[an_emulated_mind]

Well then. Any big, divine revelations?

[lostamigo]

Not really. Guess being an Apostle means you're one step closer to understanding God, but nothing beyond that.

...Kinda disappointing, isn't it.

[stupidhonor]

I see.

Do you believe to be able to do it again? You will not suffer for it, will you?

[lostamigo]

I think I can. Though it will be tricky. But I can do it.

And no, there's no price. I feel like... I paid the price early on. When I got this body. And now, it pays off.

[stupidhonor]

Took it long enough.

But, if your body was the price - did not every single member of Lost Seekers pay it too, then?

[lostamigo]

They did.

[Daniel raises his hand and looks at it.]

This is the price you have to pay, just for the opportunity to learn the truth about God. And only select few even got close.

Only me, as far as I know.

[stupidhonor]

If this is what they are all after...

How likely is it that others will follow your path? The way in which your realization was made... I cannot see many Lost Seekers able to do it.

[lostamigo]

You need to use the Gun of God to defeat the unjust.

With their interpretation of what justice is? Not likely.

[stupidhonor]

Perhaps for them, it is the rest of the world that is unjust.

[lostamigo]

Yes. But they're wrong. For the Gun of God, it doesn't matter what you think justice is. It has its own definition of the unjust.

[stupidhonor]

And many who wield one are such unjust, too.

How morbidly humorous.

[lostamigo]

Maybe if they learned the truth, they'd stop this insane crusade...

...Or maybe they'd refuse to believe it.

[stupidhonor]

Changing one's mind is difficult. Especially when you already sacrificed so much to reach where you did...

[lostamigo]

And when a megalomaniac wants to be sure you're a loyal fanatic.

[not_a_prize]

[Cue one security guard/princess looking quite interested about that.]

That's... a feeling a lot of people back home chased after.

A few sages from the old times said that if someone could find their center... this place in themselves where everything started and stopped and just focused on it... it'd be like the Universe'd welcome you.

Hasn't been a person to ever do that...

Technology here on Earth's amazing if it can pull something like that off.

[There was a bit of awe in her voice.]

[lostamigo]

Well. This is no ordinary technology. Just the work of one man, obsessed with enlightenment and weaponizing it. My old self.