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a_monetized_mind posting in srwu Oct. 25th, 2015 09:04 pm)[1] - The Feeling Of Having Dodged A Bullet (right after mission)
After the battle at Sakihama, a new unit is dragged into the base-the black-and orange Nemain, a spiky 10 meter thing and the unit Jen was piloting. It now has a giant metal stake through its chest and cockpit, the back of which is covered in blood. It doesn't respond to being dragged around, but automatically starts to devour the area around it-so it's been left outside of the hangar. It is repairing itself-after a few minutes, the stake is devoured by its nanobots, and it starts to resume its original shape. Getting into the cockpit to help treat Jen isn't happening-the nanobot cloud knocks backwards anyone who gets too close.
It's when more drastic measures involving the use of superpowers and weaponry start to be discussed that its cockpit opens. Jen comes out on a liftwire to the ground-covered in blood, her clothes torn to shreds, and holding a briefcase. She touches down on the ground barefoot, stumbles, and falls flat on her ass.
"Jesus christ...it worked."
[2] - Reconcilliation
[Later, Jen can be found in a calmer common area. By now, word may have gotten around that her betrayal was all an elaborate ploy-or it might not have. Either way, she's drinking some tea in her usual clothes, as though nothing had happened at all.]
After the battle at Sakihama, a new unit is dragged into the base-the black-and orange Nemain, a spiky 10 meter thing and the unit Jen was piloting. It now has a giant metal stake through its chest and cockpit, the back of which is covered in blood. It doesn't respond to being dragged around, but automatically starts to devour the area around it-so it's been left outside of the hangar. It is repairing itself-after a few minutes, the stake is devoured by its nanobots, and it starts to resume its original shape. Getting into the cockpit to help treat Jen isn't happening-the nanobot cloud knocks backwards anyone who gets too close.
It's when more drastic measures involving the use of superpowers and weaponry start to be discussed that its cockpit opens. Jen comes out on a liftwire to the ground-covered in blood, her clothes torn to shreds, and holding a briefcase. She touches down on the ground barefoot, stumbles, and falls flat on her ass.
"Jesus christ...it worked."
[2] - Reconcilliation
[Later, Jen can be found in a calmer common area. By now, word may have gotten around that her betrayal was all an elaborate ploy-or it might not have. Either way, she's drinking some tea in her usual clothes, as though nothing had happened at all.]
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She crouches by Jen. "Need anything?" She asks softly.
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[There was that familiar rumbling voice of Grimlock.]
Did good job. But me Grimlock say you need be more careful.
[...That's it? He's not going to say anything about the elaborate infiltration and false betrayal?]
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[She turns around, knocking the dart off in the process.]
...You know, when I said you could shoot me, I did mean you could use an actual bullet.
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[Jen gives a wave.]
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Stranger things have happened. And... I should be glad.
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[Jen gets up.]
...
[Without warning, she brings Sielje into a hug-tight, and close.]
Sorry.
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[Kind of hard to find the words when you're half-naked and the person talking to you is a giant killer robot.]
...I kind of overdid it, didn't I.
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[That was unexpected. Sielje doesn't flail though, nor try to resist. But her gaze falls to the side as her head turns slightly in embarassment.]
You have, I mean - I too have much...
Much to apologize for. Yes.
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No...you don't.
I went off on my own, and I made you worry and hurt because of it. I only thought about my own feelings, and I...I...
[She squeezes tighter.]
I'm sorry, Sielje.
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But since it was...
Since it was, then it is alright.
Everyone hides something. For one reason, or another. Even if it hurts...
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[Daniel lifts the toy gun.]
You know how much time it took to find one of those big enough for me to use?
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[Jen rubs her head.]
I could use a soda. And this briefcase needs to get to the commanders.
...Um, though. I'd like a change of clothes first.
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It doesn't feel alright. At least not for me...
...I meant those things I said. About being upset at everyone, and feeling judged...
...But, more than anyone else, it was never my intention to hurt you.
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Dido holds the soda out...then yanks it back as Jen tries to grasp it . "I've got one question first," she says.
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[A sip of tea.]
...So.
Anything you want to talk about?
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[Sielje takes a step back as well.]
I understand. Your thoughts are not unknown to me, this is why I understand them. To feel not right. To not want to hurt someone, but do so anyway.
I too have things to apologize for. And...
Things I want you to know about.
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[Grimlock offers a massive hand for Jen to grab onto to help her up.]
You still alive. Means can still make up to others. Make understand.
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What is it?
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[Taunting with mexican coke-what utter depravity!]
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... I did something similar so I can't be too mad. But there's still one thing I need to know.
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[Sielje takes a deep breath.]
I was... envious. Envious of everyone - Ynya, Kimhone. It feels as if everything came to them so easily while I struggle in vain. And, I loved them, but instead of choosing me, they chose each other. I could not take it, I ran away. I hid and nursed my bitterness.
And now, when I stand along Unity Group, and near you... I feel the same. I am jealous still, envious of those around me and their talents, even knowing how much everyone had to sacrifice to reach where they are now.
How ingrateful is that? Is it not... shameful?
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Her face scrunches up. "Did you and Huffman really have to leave us in the dark? We're not exactly bad actors...and we were worried! About you!"
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What is it?
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...Anyways, there's not much of a 'scoop' here. Just a lot of their money.
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[For a while, that is Jen's only response. Figuring out how to handle these feelings of Sielje's is a difficult balancing act.]
I...Well, it means you're not a saint. But...I don't think you need to feel guilty about it. It matters more what you do with those feelings, than just having them. And you're not actually plotting against everyone, so.
Besides, you've got plenty of things for me to be envious of.
[The last part is said perfectly naturally, like it's the most obvious thing in the world.]
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You are envious, Jen? Of me from all people?
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She peers at the case. "So what'll you do with the money?" She asks.
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...So. Was it worth it? The infiltration, I mean.
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...Well, I wasn't really acting...
And yeah, it was. Gave me a better sense on who is and isn't my enemy...let me cheat them out of some money, too.
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People trust you, and like you. It...doesn't feel that way with me. When I did the whole defection thing, Salwah said she knew something was wrong with me. Peola talked about me feeling wrong, too...
...You're a lot...better, of a person, than I am. And you're braver by a mile, too. I like that about you, but...I do envy it, sometimes.
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My bravery... was selfish. It was all done for my own self interest. I do not want to repeat myself - I spoke with others, and they said even so, it is bravery still. That may be truth, but...
I find it hard to accept. I find it hard to accept, because I find it hard to look at myself with approval. To think that others do, that you do...
I do not know how to respond. Jen, I...
Your ways are strange for Ankaia and many would look down on them, with contempt. Some do even on Earth. But I... appreciate your company. It is important to me.
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[Right, Jen wasn't here for the bit that dragged those feelings of envy into the open.]
And...Thanks.
It's good to know I've got at least one fan.
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Anyway! Yes. I spoke the truth. And...
Whatever dictated your own actions, they too are good. You helped everyone. This is what matters most.
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I also hope there's a "but" coming afterwards. For your sake.
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...The reason you pretended to turn coat. Was it genuine?
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...Look, I'm not as much of a hero as you're thinking.
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...And yeah. That was a real thing. I was just-I was so fed up, especially with Salwah...
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I wouldn't be here if there wasn't, would I?
Anyways, yeah. That brain-hacking shit...No. There are just lines you don't cross. Even if I don't like a bunch of you guys, or how you do things...It's better than that.
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[The tenseness lifts, Mizuki smiling and clapping down a hand on Jen's shoulder.]
... Thank you. For not going the way of my friend.
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[Grimlock let out a noise that to a human would resemble a snort of derision.]
If you Jen hero, Me Grimlock rule Earth. Jen do things for self. Want money. Me Grimlock talk slow, but me Grimlock not stupid. Seen worse.
Grimlock say make up for bad surprise not telling about plan. But make understand, act work because feeling real. You Jen have problems. Talk to people. Sort out. Punch faces they dumb. Make sure they know.
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