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[Ren's room has been vacated. Scarce personal possessions have been moved elsewhere, and the whole place looks like if no one ever lived there, left in a pristine condition.
The horned person can still be found in a Unity Group base, head bowed in prayer in front of the wall of rememberance. Ren wears the same robe they were first found in. Even the gunshot hole and the bloodstains are there.]
Seeing even one person die in front of my eyes, their life lost - when I had means of preventing it... it makes me feel guilty. It's a selfish emotion because it makes you feel bad for yourself rather than the one who just died. But we are inherently self-centered beings. Aren't we?
[As their eyes open, Ren smiles sadly.]
My time draws close. I know I am going to die - not exactly when, not yet, but it will be soon. And I know where it will happen. I really doubt the circumstances will be peaceful, so I already informed Roland. We will do everything we can to ensure no further tragedy strikes.
...
I am really happy we could have met. Thank you for everything.
The horned person can still be found in a Unity Group base, head bowed in prayer in front of the wall of rememberance. Ren wears the same robe they were first found in. Even the gunshot hole and the bloodstains are there.]
Seeing even one person die in front of my eyes, their life lost - when I had means of preventing it... it makes me feel guilty. It's a selfish emotion because it makes you feel bad for yourself rather than the one who just died. But we are inherently self-centered beings. Aren't we?
[As their eyes open, Ren smiles sadly.]
My time draws close. I know I am going to die - not exactly when, not yet, but it will be soon. And I know where it will happen. I really doubt the circumstances will be peaceful, so I already informed Roland. We will do everything we can to ensure no further tragedy strikes.
...
I am really happy we could have met. Thank you for everything.
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Everyone knows someone, someone who will feel sad if you die. And that death often comes out of nowhere, without warning or any opportunity to change things.
[Ren approaches Eva, measuring up for a comforting hug. They act with slowness, giving her a chance to react before it actually happens.]
There are more people who know you, Eva. Even when I am no longer here, they will be. And they will be able to help you. But also, ask for your help.
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No, that's not...I don't...I don't...
[She accepts and returns the hug, quietly resting in Ren's arms. She doesn't speak up until well after Ren is finished.]
...Ren, I don't love those people.
That's why...I don't want you to do this. Even if it's some mission, or destiny, or saves many people...just this once, can you put yourself first?
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I am not choosing to die.
[Ren lets go, gently. Hard to look the other person in the eye otherwise.]
It is not my choice to sacrifice myself. I simply... know the time is coming. I can't help it. It's like the mythical Cyclops, cursed with no knowledge other than the exact time of his own death.
Though, I will not call myself infallible. After all, my special ability is not a curse.
So it is possible I am wrong. And...
And I will do anything I can to stay alive. Once again, death is not my choice. Life is.
Is that okay with you?
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No, I don't...
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You see... I won't just lie down in bed and disappear one day, will I?
What I am expecting is a big struggle, a fight. We need to prepare for it.
The better prepared we are, the better our odds. Better chance that everyone will return home alive and well.