Performance anxiety

[star_of_sad]

[Virgola unit 3 was wrecked. Then it was repaired... and wrecked again, along with Setsuko's self-esteem.

At this rate, the mobile suit will never regain full functionality. The damage is just too severe.]

I really am a failure... even after all that happened, it's as if I learnt nothing.

Who thought it was a good idea to give a newbie position in the Glory Stars test team? Maybe I should just... go home...

[The pilot can be found moping not too far away from the hangar. It's like if Setsuko was reluctant to leave her own unit's field of vision.]

Comments

[dolorous_sensei]

Going home would be nice, isn't it? Away from all these violence...

[star_of_sad]

Umm.

Not that I want to encourage you to do this Lt Schmertz, but why didn't you leave if this is what you think?

[dolorous_sensei]

Hey, it's my line! I'm the one who's supposed to say that now!

[star_of_sad]

Ah! I'm sorry.

So. Umm. You were going to ask me that then, weren't you?

[dolorous_sensei]

...yes. Now I don't know what to ask.

[star_of_sad]

My apologies...

[dolorous_sensei]

To answer your question. Mostly it's because I have no other place to go now. I've spent half my life in the military, I don't know what would I do should I leave the military.

[star_of_sad]

Wondering what to do next... with your life, is always the hardest part.

But there must be some good parts to being in the military too, right?

[dolorous_sensei]

Really? I wonder what that could be. Mumble food... mumble discipline... mumble free board... mumble (Walt starts to mumble and list a lot of things)

No, there aren't.

But there's one more reason why I can't leave the military just yet.

[star_of_sad]

So all of these averaged themselves out to nothing.

Yes? What is the reason?

[dolorous_sensei]

Well, someone has to do it. Someone has to pilot a genoace and fight all those awful stuffs. And since I'm already in it, why not me?

[star_of_sad]

You don't have to do it alone... there are others to help you. If not anyone else, there's me.

[dolorous_sensei]

I thought you said you want to go home.

[star_of_sad]

Yes. But I too have my reasons for staying.

Especially... after we talked.