Performance anxiety

[star_of_sad]

[Virgola unit 3 was wrecked. Then it was repaired... and wrecked again, along with Setsuko's self-esteem.

At this rate, the mobile suit will never regain full functionality. The damage is just too severe.]

I really am a failure... even after all that happened, it's as if I learnt nothing.

Who thought it was a good idea to give a newbie position in the Glory Stars test team? Maybe I should just... go home...

[The pilot can be found moping not too far away from the hangar. It's like if Setsuko was reluctant to leave her own unit's field of vision.]

Comments

[caressthedarkness]

If you describe your position that way...it makes me want to return as well...

[star_of_sad]

Ah! Please don't think that, you didn't do anything wrong to deserve it!

... Or did you?

[caressthedarkness]

Even though I am supposed to be the Foundation's representative, I am also one of its newer members.

What you said reminded me that I am here on behalf of those who have fought for many, many years. It just seems...ill-fitting.

[star_of_sad]

Yet you're trying hard and doing your best, right? That's good, isn't it?

[caressthedarkness]

Sometimes I believe that I am not behaving the way that they would want me to...that I am not living up to their expectations.

But, when she was in a good mood once, my teacher told me that 'those who believe they have failed are the real failures'.

These are words I cling to that keep me moving forward. At least, I try my best to, so...

[star_of_sad]

That's true. Though it's good to know why you didn't succeed, too.

Maybe... you are a failure only if you give up?

[caressthedarkness]

[Nod.]

...Even though she may not seem like the kind of person to do so at a glance, this is a message that Madame was sincere about.

I share it with you today...and hope that you can find meaning in it, too.

[star_of_sad]

I understand.

Thank you, Seta. I really appreciate it.